Friday, 16 June 2017

Spring Update

Hi guys,

It's finally Summer, yaaaaas!! My favourite time of year! And also time for my Spring Update.

It was quite possibly the hardest few months of my life if I'm honest. But I'm happy to leave that behind me and have an amazing Summer. 


So at the very end of February I found out that the man I spent the past 8 years with, settled with and started a family with had been having an affair for the past year. 

So March was tough. 

I had to deal with what had happened myself, as well as pick up the pieces for my children. My eldest is obviously old enough to understand and was heartbroken. It has massively affected him. My youngest has been very confused but is slowly adapting to life with Daddy not living at home with us anymore, not having a family; Mummy & Daddy not being together anymore, the way he was supposed to grow up. 

I threw myself in to spending quality time with the boys, making sure they were okay and understood that I loved them and I wasn't going anywhere. Lots of fun days out and keeping them busy. 

I also took some time out for myself, to go see The Full Monty at the local concert hall. Watching some of my fave former Hollyoaks men get their bums out cheered me up a bit, if only for a couple of hours. 

My most popular post this month was The Full Monty, UK Tour.


So we started April with a trip to watch Justin Fletcher Live, it was so good. Taylor loved it! His little face when 'Mr Tumble' turned up! Even I was excited! haha

It was a month full of finding my feet, taking over the house and bills.
And if all that change wasn't enough, my employment stopped and I was made self employed. It's been a scary ride. I literally sat there at times thinking, 'wow, how the hell am I going to do all this by myself.'

This pushed me into making the decision to join ActiLabs. It's something I've been thinking about for the past 2 years. I use their products and I adore them. I soon found that it wasn't just another 'direct selling / money making scheme'; the company is an absolute joy to work for, they're super supportive, positive and rewarding. And the products are just amazing. I'll tell you a bit more about them in another post sometime. But if you fancy taking a look at what we do, click here.

I also took a bit of time out for a couple of weeks, to be kind to myself, treat myself... and a few days out in the sunshine with cocktails helped with that too!

My most popular post this month was Sending & Receiving Flowers.


May started with a trip to Butlins in Minehead. Bradley spent a week in Corfu with his Dad, so I'd booked a Just for Tots week at Butlins for Taylor. If you have under 5's, TAKE THEM! Honestly, it's such an amazing break specifically aimed at under 5's. Was such a good week. 

When we got back, I had my friends baby shower to get ready for. I was in charge of the games so I tried to go all out for her. She'd been a huge support for me over the past few weeks so I wanted to make sure she had the best time. And I think she was happy! :)

I managed to reach Diamond Status with Acti for the second month running so super happy with how that's going! Getting paid to play with makeup and take selfies can't be bad! :)

It was also Bradley's 13th birthday this month. Yes, I am now the mother of a teenager!! I'm not quite sure how that happened!!! But I made sure I spoilt him with 13 pretty fab presents and he was a very happy boy! 

It wasn't a great month for me. I think things finally caught up with me. Keeping busy, putting everything into work and the boys was all well and good but I think things finally sunk in and I fell into a really dark, dark place. It wasn't nice and I wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone. Well, any decent human being of course! There's a huge stigma surrounding mental illness, but it should be spoken about more. I was in a place that not even my 2 beautiful children were stopping me from not wanting to wake in the morning. But, it's okay not to be okay. 

Now, I'm doing well. I know I deserve to be happy. I know I deserve so much better than to be treated in such a disgusting way. I'm SO much better than all those involved. 
I won't let this ruin me. I have two beautiful boys and we're going to be happy, the three of us.
I don't have much support. Unfortunately I don't have family around me to help me out, advise me or check in with me. I have some great friends, that are there if I need them. But otherwise it's just me, me and my boys. Us against the world.

And I'll shine. Watch me.

My most popular post this month was Butlins Just for Tots week - Minehead

How was your Spring?



  1. I want to give you such a massive hug, your incredible and having been in that dark place you will be ok and come through it in your own time.
    Don't let anyone tell you when you should be over it only you will know that
    Big hugs Hun to you and both your incredible kids they are a credit to you xx

  2. Omg, I'm so sorry to read about your ex-partner. Disrespectful and heartbreaking, could imagine March was very tough on you all! But I'm so glad to read how you're just getting on with things and throwing yourself into what and who is important in your life. All in time things will work out for the better - keep going forward xo

  3. What a sh*t. Luckily your kids have a lovely mum who has been making sure they feel special and loved. I hope summer gets better x

  4. You are one strong and brave lady. Your boys are so lucky to have you as their mum. Sending you big hugs x

  5. Sorry to hear what happended to you...terrible. I am sure with your support the boys will do fab :) x

  6. I'm so sorry you've had such a bad year so far. It sounds awful but you are obviously really strong with some great friends around you. Hope that Summer is good for you and your boys and you create some happy memories.

  7. So sorry to hear you've had a tough few months. I hope things get better for you over the summer!

  8. I'm sorry you had a really bad start to the year, but you sound like you're doing amazingly! You are an fantastic mama, and I hope Summer is good for you! xxx

  9. oh it sounds like an interesting spring. We are fans of Butlins but I have not been to minehead yet.

  10. Oh I am so sorry that you got such devastating news but you are very brave for picking yourself up so quickly. Sounds like you have had some fun with the boys which is good. Mine loved Justin Fletcher when they were little


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